What makes us who we are? I have been learning a lot about myself in the past months through counseling, about who I am and why I'm that way, why I act or react the way I do to certain situations or people. I've learned how the pain inflicted upon me in the past has essencialy shaped who I am.
You see I've learned that my way of "dealing" with my pain was to isolate myself from people or situations in order to protect myself from harm, but what I wonder is has the devil won power over me through this? He wants me to withdrawal, be afraid, and doubt myself. I have a built a wall so unconciously that sometimes I don't even see it blocking my way.
So this is my valley, my challenge, to allow God to use the events in my past for growth in me. I have been too tempted to dwell in the pain, to sink back to that familiar place because it is so comfortable to me, but I WILL NOT give the devil a foothold!! I will not allow him to affect my family through me, if all that's happened to me can and will be used according to God's will than I would never change a moment of my suffering.
You see I've learned that my way of "dealing" with my pain was to isolate myself from people or situations in order to protect myself from harm, but what I wonder is has the devil won power over me through this? He wants me to withdrawal, be afraid, and doubt myself. I have a built a wall so unconciously that sometimes I don't even see it blocking my way.
So this is my valley, my challenge, to allow God to use the events in my past for growth in me. I have been too tempted to dwell in the pain, to sink back to that familiar place because it is so comfortable to me, but I WILL NOT give the devil a foothold!! I will not allow him to affect my family through me, if all that's happened to me can and will be used according to God's will than I would never change a moment of my suffering.
posted by Best of 1980 @ 1:35 PM
5 Comments:
At 2:37 PM,
where's jim? said…
Dear Best...Thanks for opening yourself up. There is healing in the revealing. Yes you need God and you also need your family around you to help. That is the first myth in the "Healing is a Choice" book that I read. Thank you for you kindness the other day. You are an angel!! Your words today are an inspiration to me!!
At 5:35 PM,
Swinging Sammy said…
You are a wonderful example for all of us to learn how to allow God to work through difficulties and mold us into what He wants us to be.
At 8:38 PM,
Kodiak said…
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At 8:39 PM,
Kodiak said…
Melisa, you are alot like me. I was held captive for many years. I saw a tv special on the Sky Angel network entitled "Wounded Spirits" by Frank Peretti
Description: It happens every day. People are deeply wounded by the words and actions of those around them. And it affects them for the rest of their lives. We've all been there - we've all been wounded and we've all wounded others. But it's time to become "wounded healers," loving and protecting the people around us.
**You and Ryan are special**
At 10:49 PM,
ole_girl said…
I am reading this book called DEADLY EMOTIONS by Don Colbert,M.D. It is a really great book. I got it at Crossroads Bookstore in Ann Arbor. If you want to borrow it when I get finished you can. I have found that it has helped me alot. It is a book that explains how for you to handle your emotions,stress,anxiety,etc...
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